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Hi! Had sports day today. I went to buy ice cream from the ice cream uncle and auntie outside toa payoh stadium because it was so super hot. After sport day, Ching, Char, Clare, Chee, Cheryl, Candy, Eunice & Nat  went to Holland for lunch. And after lunch we walked to Ching's house. Ok my day sounds damn boring but it was super  fun for me because I didn't go to school school and I didn't study and its  absolutely stress free. :_)

Happy birthday Marianne!

Hi everyone! I'm done with my homework so I'm making a short post. I just want everyone to know that it's Marianne's birthday today. And everyone who knows her would know what a nice, funny, talented, caring girl she is. So go wish her a great 15th.
1 more thing, today during chem prac, mrs yogee was showing us a sodium + water reaction. It's a pretty vigorous reaction if you haven't studied this. Anyway, the sodium was darting on the water's surface like a little mad hamster and then there were sparks around it. Then a flame and more sparks. Hehe so cool. I started singing firework... "baby you're a firework......" then suddenly the sodium kind of exploded and then was actually a firework. A small one. It was super cool!! Hehehe sparks flew around and well, it was our firework :_)
ok my cat wants to sleep now. Good night folks!!!

IM WEARING A GREEN SHIRT TO SCHOOL TOMORROW LOOK OUT FOR NICE GREEN GIRL HE HE.

Sharks and unicorns and pudding

Hi. Just a short post about my day. Woke up at 6:45 even though my alarm was set at 7:30. Got up and looked throughout my books all morning until 10 plus. Ate prata and chit-chatted with my cousin and sister (my brother doesn't talk in the morning). He came over last night, he talks a lot. Got dressed and left home at... 12? I'm not sure. Anyway, both my sister and I wore red shirts. We were being patriotic!! Hehe. No exactly we just wanted to where the same colour. Went to sengkang. Studied till 4:17. Then we went to compass point cos my sister wanted to buy "3 gay things" for her friend as a birthday gift. She's sharing the whole present with 6 people so 6 x 3 = 18. As you get older, it's more difficult for your friends to buy you your age's number of presents. Ok it sounds odd. Rephrase as you wish. Anyway, we walked all over compass point and I was so tired cos I was carrying my a math and biology text book. PLUS my heavy backpack. I hate shopping.
Reached home at like.. 6+-. Left home immediately after cos my mom was grocery shopping in ntuc. So I went to hougang point to help carry back everything. Helpful little kid :_) hhe kiddin.
Anyway.... Surprise surprise! I'm excited for the upcoming school week!! Cos I've only 3 study days. PLUS, BAND RESUMES THIS WEEK I M EGGCITED. Super curious about the repotoire. I am hoping and hoping and hoping that I'm not going to be disappointed. Thursday is sports day!!!!! One of the best days of the school year!!! :_) I'm obviously not running... Alright, I've gotta go pack my bag! Have a great week ahead!

Pudding Patties

Hey guys!
Like I said yesterday, I went to Sengkang to study today. As you can see, Jillene was there :_) I went there at 10am and studied. Did English compre,  A Math and a little bio. Jillene only came at 12pm. Then we both studied bio. Studying was kind of productive. But the last time I went to Sengkang to study it was more productive. I still like that place very much. This time, no one was playing basketball. Its very peaceful. (With the exception of little noisy kids in the morning). Played monopoly deal in the afternoon. At about 2 +. Then studied and played again at 4. I love monopoly deal, I wish I had my own deck.
I'm not sure what I am doing tomorrow. I'm 100% sure that I'll be studying. Just not sure where. I think seletarr would be a great place to study at. Like last  week. But there's this fat bunch of annoying people that like to go to the study room on Sundays. For the air-conditioning. They make noise and irritate me. Other option is Denise's house. But I might as well study at home then.

"Between the lines of fear and blame you begin to wonder why you came"

Hi. I feel like mashed potato. Not its physical state. No way will I be some semi-solid, squishy, yummy lump of starch. Hehe. Ok anyway. I don't have much to say. Basically, I'm going to study at Sengkang tomorrow. I hope it'll be productive. Studying A Math + Bio. And completing homework. So that I can play on Sunday. And study again on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Ok I know this is short but I am tired. And just in case you were wondering, my hair smells really good. Hehehe.


The scientific name of the giraffe is "Camelopardalis."

When the rain falls the flies come out to play

Dear humming birds, do you actually hum?
I'm on my way home now. So I'm just going to blog now to save time. Cos I don't think I'd be doing anything other than drawing graphs and solving exponential equations. I hope I'll be able to sleep at 10. I love sleeping but last night, I got carried away with graph drawing and I slept an hour later than I thought I would.
Today: had a great afternoon. At eskivo, or whatever the gelato shop opposite school is called. Went with band friends. Ching Chee cheer candy clare. Alliteration :_) We ate and played taboo. I love taboo, its so fun. But we get very loud when we play taboo. It's not very pleasant but we were having a break. It's strange because by jut going over to eat, Ching was extremely overjoyed. She said she finally had her life back. I dunno about you but this isn't something we should be glad about. It just shows how much stress and pressure has been placed on her shoulders and what a relieve it was for her to just go and eat with us.
Life is so unpredictable you know. And yesterday, the guy who came during assembly said that life was simple and beautiful. I wonder which world he lives in. Life is tough. And I'm just 14 (going 15).
Ok I'm getting tired. And hungry. See you all tomorrow!

Word of the day: Conscience
One's sense of right and wrong.

Just sayin

If you don't really care about irrelevant stuff, go away.
I've been feeling very uncomfortable ever since school ended. Ok to be more specific, every since someone told me something irrelevant. But then sometimes stupid irrelevant information affects us so much and we seriously dunno why. That's annoying isn't it. Cos now you're stuck here worrying about something that doesn't affect you at all. Okieeeee

School was alright today. It's cheric day, by the way. The lively combination of 2 names. I felts super P6 again. Like all immature and gigglily over these kind of stuff. I know it's super lame lah hehe. But the creation of cheric is really an honest mistake. It was a slip. Ha ha ha.

E math test tomorrow. Wish me luck. I need the mark.

If you're sensitive, go away.

Hi everyone. I owe all of you a very long blog post. But its 9:17PM on a Monday nice and all I want to do is go to bed! (Hehe at 9:17, yeah yeah yeah don't nag) However, I will blog about Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Saturday and Sunday will be brief though. Like a gust of wind.

FRIDAY 08.04.11

As most of you should know by now, it was my school's Band's SYF day. So I woke up at 6AM as usual. Brushed my teeth ate my breakfast left home reached school. All very usual and normal. But it felt a little different than regular days when I reached school. Cos one of the first things I did was go to the band room to put all my uniform stuffs down. And that felt different. And then there were all the Good-Lucks and All-The-Bests. That was different. Went for my first lesson of the day after a very uneventful assembly (no good-luck or all-the-best from our dear principal, maybe she forgot), Chinese. It was a bore. And I couldn't pay attention anyway. My mind wasn't there. It was in the band room. Skip this and it was CHEM TEST. AAHAHA. Hehe. All the sec 3 band kids gathered outside the staff room and waited for Mr Tee. He came and brought us into the staff room. I like going in the staff room. Its like entering some forbidden area. :_) We sat down in some air-conditioned room in the staff room (a room within a room >:_)) and did our test. Needless to say, I didn't know quite a lot of stuff. But I did indicate at the bottom of the last page that "At least I tried all the question :_(" :_) Clare highlighted all the golds in the test paper. And she answered questions she didn't know with gold (like they asked what can replace zinc metal in making zinc oxide or something like that and she answered gold). She also wrote in blocked letters at the top of her script "SC BAND GO FOR GOLD". Oh Clare, you do us all proud :_)

After the test, we went to the band room. Did warm ups. Played through both pieces once. They were not spectacular but they were acceptable. Definitely not our best. Then we had all the motivational talk again by various people. Tanya's was, as expected, very hilarious and helpful :_) Most of what everyone said ran along these lines. The results is not what matters, but it is the performance that matters. The performance has to be our best performance and we have to put in all our effort into making it our best. I really believe in this.

Went for lunch and off to Singapore Conference Hall! Ok, my feelings by then was still neutral. Not nervous at all. Please don't think I was nervous I really wasn't. I felt very extremely determined to do my best. Ok moving on. It was soon 2:45PM. We were on stage and we were about to play. We started. We sounded fine. Pretty good in the beginning of memories actually. We didn't slow down at B. That was good. I was relatively in tune, that was good too. But somewhere in the middle things were starting to feel odd. Something was wrong, I could tell from Mr Tan's expression. He was trying to push us more, there was a lack of communication. Just before M (if I'm not wrong), 4 bars before we went into that section. Slowed down. I didn't like that. But I was holding a C what could I do. Alright, so I could concluded right there on stage that Memories wasn't our best. It was acceptable, maybe a little more than acceptable. 

WHAV. Oh WHAV. Hmmm... I was quite disappointed. MAINLY because of the solos. Definitely not my best. Ok good things first, if not you all will blast me with how its just my lousy POV. Beginning was nice! Tanya and Cheryl came in super nicely. I felt really good then. I didn't mispitch any low C hehehe. The mallets  part wasn't rushing. Ok the running notes a bit harsh. How the music develops is great, like how everything grows to reach the climax. Woodwinds are quite clear. Oh the solo. Man I always had a bad feeling about switching instruments in 1 bar. Never really got the nice position before i started playing so it was a bit harsh. And I was super close (if you listen carefully I actually didn't end the phrase nicely) to destroying the first phrase. But I love the projection. Projection = nicenicenice.Alright! The second phrase is really nice. But I could've extended the note a little baby inch longer. To connect with the Eupho part. But anyway, you all who heard me play the solo like 90838798327865189 times, will know that that was not my best. The articulation of the high notes (its a G), very nicely played :_) I love that. Temple Block, no rushing + there are dynamics! Good job Ching!!! 101's running notes actually work out fine!!!!! Aw yeah. Ok next solo... this one. I was super disappointed lah. But meh its over. Okok its here (if you havne't realized yet, I'm listening to the recording now). There's a cut, like an abrupt ending to the first phrase. This is because I so wisely forgot to breathe. I knew BT was like "SAIYUFDHGY!" even though he smiled to make sure I don't break down. I was "SAIYUFDHGY" too!!!!! URGHOAGUDOII! I STILL AM WHEN I THINK OF IT. He knew that i could've played it well! I knew too cos I just did that morning!!! Sigh. But I still moved on. I dunno why but I automatically changed my mindset on SYF day. Like usually a regular practice I'd still be so damn frustrated over that error like after 50 bars but I just moved on. I think its quite interesting cos I didn't even tell myself to react that way I just did. Ok now I'm not really making sense.

Alright so long story short, we got our gold. But personally, I feel that we didn't really really deserve it. Ok so maybe we did but then, what was everyone saying before we got that gold? 

The results is not what matters, but it is the performance that matters. The performance has to be our best performance and we have to put in all our effort into making it our best.

Was that our best? NO! I'm sorry I'm such a spoiler, I know everyone is very happy over the gold but you guys were the ones who said the results did not matter. C'mon. Almost everyone agreed that that was way below our best. And even Mr Tan knew it! Couldn't you guys tell that he was very disappointed? I felt very bad because I knew that by not playing as well as I can, I adding to his disappointment. I really feel like :_( about that. Like stones are weighing me down. Thats why I couldn't smile even when we got the results. Hey don't get me wrong, I'm damn relieved that we didn't get silver. I expected silver. I even told my parents to not be too shocked if we get  a silver. Sigh I can't really explain like everything by typing it out. (its really tedious... and tiring)
But congrats on the gold, SC Band. We did it again. But my joy on 02.04.09 was way stronger than on Friday. Because it didn't exist on Friday. Just saying. 

Don't start hating me cos of this post ok. Its just how I honestly feel (its not even everything).

SATUDAY AND SUNDAY

Saturday and Sunday went by like ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!! Thats supposed to be like, like a really fast.... like a fast car.... like a fast........... science. 

I'm on the bus now

So I decided, Aiya just blog lah no harm done. I feel like eating sogurt. Well, basically frozen yogurt. Haven't had any since the year started :_( starting to miss it badly. I've been missing sec 2 all this while but now I miss it more. Sec 2 was like. Freedom. I went out after school way more often then I do this year (actually, I don't go out after school at all now). oh and when I say go out I meant for like lunch with my friends or to corro for bubble tea or sogurt for yogurt. I'm not some kind of wild child running around orchard road after school. Never did never will. I made a bet with my cousin, if by 20 I still remain super thrifty, he'll give me $50. Hehe easy money. I keep winning bets, digest owes me $2 and someone owes me $5 and someone else owes me another $5. No one's gonna pay up. Hehe I sound like a loanshark.
Alright my plan for today, reach home, mug Chem and SS. More of chem. Do homework. Eat. Sleep. In case you were wondering, I'm in 156 now. Yio chu kang rd. Kinda near rosyth but nearer to parry. K let me rest bye bye.

Hi caterpillars

I came online just to upload photos for you all ok. Cos the views were increasing and increasing and increasing and I decided that ok thats enough, I should post something. Well I'm gonna bring you good news. The total number views this blog has received in the last month has been the highest since October 2010! *Applause* *Cheers* *Screams* *Shrieks*

Thats good, I guess. And you know what?!?! I'll tell you what! These views were mostly from people I know!! Cos of my odd blog url, no one would randomly find my blog by chance. They'd have to find a link. And I've my blog link on my Facebook but not everyone of my friends can see that cos my FB has a super high privacy setting thing... Hehe.

K anyway, SCHOOL TOMORROW. :_(
This week is going to be extremely draining. And I mean EXTREMELY.
Monday's the day I'm gonna have to rush my studies. Rush rush  rush like a little mouse, ok that doesn't really work... rush rush rush like a cheetah hunting for dinner. Hehehe. Anyway, this is because I have band on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. All until 7PM ++++. I think Thursday's practice might even extend to 9PM+++. This mad number of practices are there because SYF IS ON FRIDAY. 2:45PM. SINGAPORE CONFERENCE HALL. Anyway, I'd deal with the practices fine you know,  really. I'd actually enjoy them cos I like having band prac. But you know what!?!??! THE SCHOOL IS TOTALLY NOT HELPING US OUT. AT. ALL. ON TOP OF ALL THE HOMEWORK THE TEACHERS ARE GONNA GIVE US (I can already see the pile piling up), THERE'S AN SS TEST ON THURSDAY AND A CHEM TEST ON FRIDAY. I know it isn't the most number of tests they've given us inn a week but C'MON. GIVE US A FREAKIN BREAK? There you are telling us that we MUST get Gold With Honours (for you) and there you are  giving us a test on SYF day itself. Just like Mr Tan had said, its like telling us to go for band prac on our Prelim O levels. What the hell. This just pisses me off so much you know. Cos they are really not helping at all. They're just making things worse and that one of the many reasons I wish I had gone to a different school. So little children wondering with school you should go to, don't come to mind.. Well thats my opinion. But I'll tell you something, school fees are 200 bucks a month for a singapore citizen. On top of that there's miscellaneous fees for GOD KNOW WHAT. And every now and then each subject teacher collects some money from our poor emptied pockets to print notes and worksheets. I swear its daylight robbery. :_(

Another thing is,
LIMELIGHT CONCERT ON 23RD MAY 2011 AT ESPLANADE. Be there or be square. Order tickets from me!

Ok is this blog post long enough? I won't be able to blog until the weekends (I think) so I hope this lasts you.

I hope this lasts

Took this today. Under the dining table.

Several weeks ago

Its Ching if you can't recognize her

Near Empress food centre (or what ever its called)

Its QinYi!

Her brilliant idea

The clouds are so pretty

Clare clare clare

 

driving to seletar

Granny's house

Was looking through some of my old work sheets, look what I found.

Oh yeah

I forgot. I wanted to tell you all that going on facebook, finding random people and inboxing them stuff like
"Hihi, mind intro :))"
and
"(: Hellooo"
and
"Hey, do you know me?? (:"
is kinda like walking up to a random stranger on the street and saying the same thing. Just that you're a coward and the internet is your shield. C'mon what do you need to cover up? Your ugly face? And if you say that you're actually willing to walk up to strangers and introduce yourself, then I respect your courage but then why don't you go do that? Plz plz plz think before you say stupid things.

And question for today, how many faces can one actually have?

MMmmm guys I'm bored. Shall go do logarithms. Or quadratic equations. Or Romeo and Juliet shit. Logarithms are fun.

Love yourself today cos baby you were born this way.

Hi babies.
Mmm, sorry if I sound so angsty now a days. I'm not. I don't have a reason to be angry. Sometimes I feel nothing. Which feels funny. Like just now, when Cheryl was talking to me. Oh yeah before I forget, Jillene, thanks unicorn, I love you, you're so sweet. :_)

Band today. MK took us for Memories. Played the solos in front of the band with Jessica then Charmaine. Sigh I felt and feel so hopeless. I practice like shit but it still sounds so funky. I d k what to do. Miracle, its time for you arrival.

First time I connected my phone and computer. Its confusing I dunno what to do. Someone come and save me now?

Ok since I'm using my computer, I should upload photos. (4mins later) I don't know how to take photos out from my phone this sucks.

Then I have no photos for you babies.

So I'm just gonna illustrate what i want to say.

But the difference is that you are not a cat.

Perfect

I don't know. Things don't seem to be improving. It's so messed up. Guys, you've gt to understand. There's more to life than what people think of you. To he'll with what those critics think THEY can go burn in their own hole you don't let them make you dig one! You've got to be stronger. And I say this because I know that your problems aren't that big. I know. I really do. There are real troubles that people face while you're crying over a tiny, silly one. Don't matter what people say, nothing matters if you don't like it that way. You're living your own life, why you let thoughts take over? You've got a house, food on te table, lots of money and a family that loves you. There really isn't anything more you'll need cos that's really the most that I'd ask for. And guys, your parents love you. A lot. Trust me, they do. Just get this in your head, people love you but you're just turn your back to them. And walking alone doesn't matter at all. Do what I you have to walk to te bus stop alone so what if you have to o to the loo Aline so what if you have to walk to class alone does this really change you in anyway? Get your mind straight, the world doesn't hate you unless you make us. And thats only when your eyes decide to play funny tricks on you even if it's not April fools. It's ok. I still love you.

I'm sorry if this post is so weird I wrote it in like 3 minutes. Guys, I'm scared.