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Ok so it's about time that I have another normal post on this blog hahaha. You know, changing my URL has given me a very false sense of security because I immediately assumed that the only eyes following my words would be eyes that were familiar. But I was sorely wrong because for some of the oddest reasons, I'm receiving page views from the United States. I don't know, so don't ask ha ha.

Anyway, today I reached school early as usual. Ayana did not come to school because she is sick, and I hope she gets better soon because being sick can never be a good thing. Or it could be but that's not an angle that we'd look normally look from. I slept in the half dimmed lights for almost 2 hours. Senior came in before J2 assembly and just lay on the floor again. But other than that I was alone. I thought rt or Jill might accompany me soon but they were both later than expected. It didn't matter anyway, because I was just half asleep all the way. Reported for my first lecture which I kept zoning out from. Then headed for GP. Which was spent talking to this classmate I rarely get the opportunity to speak to. He's a really smart guy that's always eating and laughing. Then break, which I blogged about already. Eh btw, don't misunderstand, I do have money. I just had no money w me today because I am an idiot. I had $13.10 in my wallet because I forgot that I had to pay for chemistry, which costs $12.80. So after I paid, I had $0.30 left. Yeah...... Ok anyway after break I don't remember. Chinese lesson was quite engaging I guess. I like my Chinese teacher, although I wish I could stop being a disappointment. You know what, I just generally wish I could stop disappointing people because I think I am. And I can't help it. School ended early because Wednesdays are breathers. I went to the band room for a short while. Then I left school. Then I went home at 9. 

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Had dinner w rt & ji today at chomp chomp. Serangoon gardens is a great place. It's a mess of class and comfort and food because there're all the atas restaurants along with the shady bars and of course our favourite hawker food whoa. Damn good. We ate at chomp chomp. Have to thank these two for being around for... All three of us. All the time. And I'm glad to be around for them. As much as I can. Ate a decent amount of food. All damn shiok lah that's what counts. Food and company. 

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Last night I dreamt that I was fighting again what. There was some feud going on between two clans or some shit. Hm, imagine Romeo and Juliet but more brutal then it already is. I was not a part of any group but I think they were both against me? Because I was in the middle of their rivalry so I guess they decided to team up against me -_- o well, I fought them off. Kind of. Then the scene changed and I was watching Pokemon, the episode where Ash Ketchum saves Charmander. Sigh I miss Pokemon and my Pokemon watching days. Haha. Here's what I did this morning! Summarized my week in Chinese. For what? I d k. (Stated that I study in Sengkang library because I don't like people knowing where I study lol)

May 13

What a day. Read that sentence in the most neutral way possible. Because it pretty much is neutral. Maybe leaning slightly towards the positive side.
First thing I noticed immediately after assembly was that I had read the wrong timetable. I read Monday A instead of Monday B and therefore I forgot to bring all my math notes and tutorials. And instead I brought econs lol. Sigh. O k we shall rewind a bit and it's 8am! Ryan tan brought durian puffs to school for Jillene and I because food is his form of affection. He brought caramel popcorn too but unfortunately we couldn't share that. We did go to the canteen to buy Nutrisoy after the puffs though, to kill the durian breath. That was nice. I also found my new love for reduced sugar Nutrisoy.
Every lesson was a drag because I feel so incapable of achieving anything. Chemistry was depressing when I knew I was going to fail today's quiz too. Just like every quiz before this one. -_- But I got over it because I deserve every failure I get.
During PE the first thing I did was trip over my foot and land on my left ankle. Y'know when your foot tilts inwards and you step down on your ankle instead. Yeah. I stupidly thought ah it'll be fine so I went ahead playing frisbee. Had a bit of a selfish moment during the game when I didn't really remember to actively include everyone. Yeah I gave my inner self a silent slap and tried to get everyone to participate more after that. Stupid chow kept running and running and now my foot is numb. Ah. Limp limp.
Heats were right after PE. I really wanted to stay and watch but I couldn't :_( damn. And yeah you know why I wanted to stay and watch. But dammit. O well.

Tomorrow is a very special day

Fry day

Blogging for that person who checked my blog at 7.15 in the morning.
It's Friday today, but for some odd reason Friday doesn't feel any better than any other day because Friday is still a school day.
I'd restart this term if I could. Play my cards differently.
Sitting in the atrium now because I have to charge my phone but the weather is so hot and the air is so still and this is very uncomfortable.
If anyone sees this before you reach school pls come and help me with the Chinese WS.

Seriously, someone explain why your section will always be a group of special people in your heart regardless of how long you've been together or regardless of how long you haven't seen each other. I don't really know why but I know that all my section mates (from the 10 years, yes) are truly special people to me. (Secretly prays for feelings to be mutual)

Life

Hi I have finally gotten my life back, it feels as if I've been returned something that has already been beaten up, torn apart and stomped on and I'm supposed to repair all damages instantly. I'm afraid to say that I doubt I'll be able to do so. Been losing myself lately and I'm blogging because I haven't had the chance to blog for awhile and despite my absence, I've still been receiving (a few) page views. Which is shocking because I'm assuming that those few page views are from people who care about my life and genuinely want to know how I'm doing and stuff. So here I am updating you very briefly.
Today marked the end of my dreaded hectic schedule. CLC ended around 1.30 with a bang. Literally because of the thunder and lightning from the massive storm. I honestly did not enjoy myself at all and I honestly learnt only about a pinky-finger size worth of lessons. You can't teach leadership lah. C'mon. But I can't deny that the camp was very well organised. And that the food was damn good lol. We even had an apple during yesterday's lunch and expectedly, some people didn't want their apples. So I was keeping those spare apples like how a squirrel would stock up for winter. Or a quokka. Lol actually I don't think quokkas stock up food. Anyway, it's 5.30 and I'm still in school. O yeah today marks the 14th consecutive day that I am in this compound. Despite a public holiday (labour day. Which NYSB labored through) and 2 Sundays.
I've been attempting my Chemistry tutorials since the afternoon but my studying pace is just too damn slow. Mainly because I just don't get shit. And this feels like shit cos I really feel so behind and lost and doomed for the week. Sigh.
Abrupt end to the post gd bye.