Band day

See how in trying to get increasingly creative with my post titles? Ok that's rubbish. Anyway, it's 7.24 I'm waiting for the same bus again. Just from a different bus stop lol. When I was walking to the bus stop this morning (20 mins ago?) I tripped over a step and fell on the staircase. Fortunately, I didn't fall and on my face or laid sprawled all over the ground. I just tripped and landed, seated onto a step. I also dk. A bit embarassing lah but it's ok. When you make yourself ignorant you won't feel embarrassment.

My phone's battery is at a risky 41%. I hope I can go up to the library during a free period to charge it.
It's full band during practice today so there's no way I can charge my phone during sectionals. We're writing a Chinese essay today so I'm going to need my phone as a translator+dictionary. So I should probably conserve my battery now.

Good Saturday

Whoa there's a description of the day in my post title! It's been a good day. 10.30pm now and I'm heading home. Thankfully my parents came to pick me up on the way home.
Went to SK to study today. Reunited with second home. Whoa the place was so quiet it was really great. Really really great. The only problem was that I couldn't really study because I had to finish my homework. Which is still incomplete. There's an insane amount of work to do. It worries me. It's ok I have one more day. I'm worried for my PW PI cos I'm really lost for that one. Any day with you is a good day so 6 hours of wading through tutorials wasn't bad at all lol.
Went to Jillene's house after that for Section Tuan Yuan Fan!!! My section is so nice and funny really whoa. Had a good steamboat and BBQ (can count as, right?) followed by cards & mahjong lol. I didn't gamble because I don't gamble (remember my tweet: I don't want your money and I don't want to give you my money). Good section bonding time but I'm quite tired now. After such a long but well-spent day.
I'm going back to SK tomorrow for sure. Definitely. Must. Must finish my homework and must touch on bio and read Econs if not I have failed in life. Ok I shouldn't make such a promise. Kkkk hopefully I'll be able to accomplish my mission assign to myself lololol. Warrior chow battling homework and school work and work and work and Biology. Eh no joke A level bio is tough :_(
Last day of Chinese New Year tomorrow!!! An end to the celebrations. Sigh. End of the season. Marks the start of a newer, greyer one (pessimist). Aiya, be optimists lah. It will be ok. JC monster shall not shallow us up. It might but we will say it shan't for now. Anyway, I think my relatives would be coming over for dinner. Either that or we'd be going back to Clementi

Tuesday

On my way home now. It's 4 in the afternoon and I just had lunch with my OG. Second OG outing that I've attended. I'm usually very reluctant to go for OG outings but I never do regret going for any. Lol. Dumb chow. I like my OG, they are very nice people. Then again, almost everyone in school is very nice. But my OG will always be my first few "Nanyang friends".

Ok abrupt end to my first paragraph because its 7.54pm now. Am I retarded or retarded. I reached home and told myself to shower, sit down, and study. But instead, I shower, laid on the sofa like a panda, played the guitar, sung my lungs out and just solo lepaked through the evening. Whoa I feel damn stupid now. Someone remind me to never come home unless I want to waste my time. I can't seem to study at home when I'm home alone lol. No discipline :_( sigh o well. Study now

Have you ever felt like your bones know exactly what to do and yet your muscles want to screw that decision up? It's like the brain VS heart thing lol I can't believe I'm saying this but my mind is fighting with my core, everything that I know is right and what I should do and the rules and blah blah blah. I don't even know how to describe this. It's a new impulsiveness that wants to be shown whoa ok chow.

What else do I have to rant about.
Umm. Met my CT yesterday. Yeah. Wide variety of people. Many very animated. (M Neo words 2.0) Lively bunch, very friendly. Now that I think of it, the past few weeks have all been about making new friends and meeting new people and all things new, new teachers new food new friends new subjects new books new faces new food new drinks new instrument new hair new new new new new.

It's 8.35pm. Have you ever felt like you had all your priorities sorted out so perfectly and nothing could disrupt it. I'm studying now. Ok I'm actually just doing math and this isn't considered studying.

Enrichment day tomorrow!!! I'm attending a self-defense course so that I can defend myself. Ok I'm actually attending this self-defense course because I had no other options because no one told me I had to apply for a course. O lovely. But honestly not too picky about what I go for because I'll be enriched anyway (#optimistic#brightersideoflife#positivity)

8.49pm - What's a "bbg"?

9.14m - "baby girl" lol ok. I saw my friends having Instagram captions like "happy birthday bbg!" And yeah now I know.
Manis is sitting on my homework now. So inconsiderate. I'll show you.
When people tell me "I see your flaws" I wish I could scream "I DO TOO". Thinking of it is depressing though. And frustrating. At least while I think of the flaws I see. Y'all probably see more. Ok back to work. i don't feel like going to school tomorrow.

9.35pm Eh my attention span is decreasing because I haven't had dinner. Chem time.

10.08pm Dinner time bye bye

Nah, chapalang for you to read.

Life

Anyway, just to update, I didn't watch the movie. Wan Lin cancelled on me sigh. It's becoming some international agreement among homosapiens to cancel on chow hahaha ok I'm kidding. Man, I'm really happy. Quokka.
My Skype with my bestfriend this morning (SG time)

Movie night

Title says it all, I'm going to watch Ah boys to Men Part 2 tonight with Wan Lin! Her mother has free GV tickets and she so nicely let us use it tonight. I hope the cinema won't be crowded!!! Either City Square or Bishan because they're the closest. I hope the tickets won't be sold out. Or I'd be pretty disappointed. Alright, will talk about the movie later. If I'm not too tired or lazy.
Meanwhile, take a look at Siri.

Six Degrees of Separation

HI.
Self pity post because I got publicly insulted on the FB confessions page I deem it acceptable to post a photo of my face on my blog for reader acknowledgment. And I apologize to you, sucker, that I am not pretty enough for you. But no one gives a shit about your opinion.

Ok side note I took this photo because its a one double eyelid day for me. And also, my eyes look freaking black because of the filters lol thanks Instagram #XproII

I shall now continue writing about my uneventful day. I was supposed to study right? Guess what!!!! I didn't!!!! (Cue cheers from competitors. You noobs, I'm not even trying.) procrastinated for the entire day, repeatedly giving myself shut excuses to stop me from starting work. But o well. Days like this YOLO cheers me up. I tell myself YOLO so I can be obnoxious and ignorant yay bimbo. Ok I'm joking but what to do, couldn't study today. Wish me more luck for tomorrow.

OK Time to check out my extremely uneven bangs!!!!!!!
(And admire the pink towel behind me #notmine)

Saturday morning

Past-Chow said last night that she'd go to SK to study today. But present-Chow is screwing up her plans by being lazy.
I'm sitting at the dining table now it's 8.23am, I'm reading the newspapers after eating second breakfast. I know I need to study today and I know I'm gonna be home alone so maybe I should try studying at home. Maybe. Because I still want to go over to SK to see my haojiubujian friends but there might not be space in SK and I'm lazy to take a bus over. I wish I could just walk over. Ah o well.
K I fear that I will get distracted at home. Because I can get distracted by... Nothing at all really. If you leave me alone at home I won't die of solitude because I can sing and people won't tell me to shut up. If you leave me home alone with a guitar or piano, even better for procrastinating chow. Aiya what the heck. If you leave me alone with a water bottle now also boleh. Thank you cup song.
Nevermind, lets have some faith in mugger chow and see how things go. Must test the study grounds now since schoolwork isn't that intense yet.

Valentines' Day 2013

Somehow it's a great big deal this year. Well it was always a big deal for the past 4 years too. Cos girls really love valentines' day lol idk why also. Anyway, I didn't expect JC to be so on about valentines' day too but it was. It was a good day.
Eh I hope everyone had a good day, I remember Valentines' day 2012. This year beats that year but I broke a rose again today, shit lol sorry.
Really appreciate all the gifts and chocolates and flowers they are all very sweet (literally) and pretty.
And eh. No one is forever alone lah. Pls. Your friends surround you and I think that's already good enough :_)

Nah, spam y'all with hearts
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(Must make use of phone's camera again lololol)

1st day of school

With lectures.

Yesterday I went to my uncle's house to help out my aunt in some filming. Yeah 10 star actress. Ok joking.
After that was adventuring Holland Village because we pretty much covered the whole of SK already lol. Somehow sitting around doing nothing productive is not a waste of time when you're with good company. Boarded a bus without really having a destination (ok there's the general direction but whatever lah lol) and we drove pass LONG HOUSE. Whoa I got a shock cos I had forgotten that that bus passed by Long house. So we got off and had an early dinner. Kinda early. The sun hadn't set yet when we got our food. When we left it was dark. So happy that you're in my school you have no idea.

Whoa first official lecture of my JC life and I went to the wrong venue. My Math Lecture was in LT2 but I went to LT1 because somehow I kept telling myself to go to LT1. It's retarded because I didn't even know I was in the wrong venue despite being surrounded by complete strangers and having no Yoshas around. Plus, I didn't bring a pencil case to school (did I mention 'genius'?) so I had to borrow a pen from kind stranger beside me. Who was very nice about it.
The lectures today was ok.
Band practice was ok.
Dinner with my partial bench kids after band was nice. Good catch up as usual but unfortunately it was a short dinner. I didn't really want to stay too long either because its still a school day tomorrow and I have to bid holiday mood goodbye. Aiya I don't really have holiday mood already lah. All preped and ready for JC (hopefully). But it was good seeing CK again!!! Can never get sick of this girl lo. Shawna and Jia Qi cancelled last minute so we had a NY + HCI dinner lol. Same uniform lah brother. 💛💛💛
Wish me a good tomorrow in school! As I do to you.
Shall flood you with photos.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

Good morning it is 12.40am on the first day of Chinese New Year and I am still at my grandma's house in Clementi after reunion dinner yesterday evening. Rare moments in life when I'm awake at this time. I'm not home yet because my parents are stuck playing mahjong with my uncles and aunties. Being a good silent patient kid by fighting my closing eyelids and draining battery while waiting for them to be satisfied with the endless games of mahjong. It really never ends! But aiya Chinese New Year only comes by once a year.
I'm so restless and tired that I decided to search the web for my Feng Shui in 2013. Basically read that I have a challenging year ahead shit bro I hope that's fake. Nevermind, fate is never on my side and I'll twist fate anyway :_) hehehe ok mega tired.
Anyway, since I'm talking about my Feng shui, I'll just share some of it here.

Generally, the Water Snake energy of 2013 is considered to be a bit challenging for the Rat. 2013 can still be a successful year for business and career endeavours, as well as personal relationships because it will bring many opportunities for change

By the way I'm only reading up on Feng shui because my mother left a tab about her Feng shui lololol. She also searched for her lucky colour in 2013 hahaha omg my mother. 

Ok to everyone who reads my blog, I will assume that we are friends. Or at least acquaintances. Who ever you are to me, I hope you have a great year ahead. Time flies so make use of every second you have (what I'm telling myself, I'm sharing with you). No regrets and I hope everyone will be fortunate enough to have happiness and positivity everyday. Positive year lolol let 2013 be a good year. I think mine will be :_) (positivity). 

To my bestfriend in Melbourne, I hope you continue to feel all the love from Singapore despite being so far away from home. Enjoy this new experience and know that we all miss you like crap. Or at least I do :_) have a great snake year being all independent,  im really looking forward to seeing you again in May!

Yesterday afternoon

After school Qinyi came over to my place before we went over to Ck's. we initially wanted to surprise ck but because it would've been rude to just crash her house we decided to tell her.
Good afternoon/evening/night spent with Qin Shawn and Chee. Ck just bought Xbox + kinect + dance central yesterday (her birthday present) so I helped her set it up because im apparently technician chow. We danced and laughed and talked and did a lot of catching up. It was really too bad that the rest couldn't make it :_/ but o well. Gonna miss them all together gonna miss ck and her major trolling. Whoa this girl seriously just too much. Too much ok ck HAHHA. Really glad that Qin managed to appeal into NY same school again yeah brother.

Friday

Yesterday was great. Today was great too.
Orientation DID end with a blast. I really like my school a lot. Short journey home only gave me another reason to like my school more.
Celebrated CNY in school today. I really like my school a lot.
I'm just going to share photos because I took a lot of photos with this amazing camera. I understand CK's addiction to panorama now.

Second last day

Of Orientation. It was one of my most tiring days in JC so far lol. Maybe it was all the shouting. O what am I saying, of course it was the shouting. Aiya then I take it back lah, not one of my most tiring days, I'm stronger than that.
CCA bazaar today so I was just walking around shouting "JOIN BAAAAAAAAAAAND" every few seconds. Then aggressively going up to random other J1s and looping a wrist band over their fingers then letting this line of verbal diarrhea out as fast as I could so that they wouldn't walk away ("HIyouactuallydonthavetohavepriorexperiencebeforeyoujoinbandandtherearentanyauditionsinfactyoucanactuallywriteyournamedownonmultipleCCAlistssoyouroptionsarestillopenandthisdoesn'tdetermineyourfinalCCAblahblahblahthelistisovertherejustwriteyournamedownblahblahblahfollowtheline JOIN BAND"). Did that continuously for almost the whole two hours of the CCA bazaar before performing at the Atrium with the rest of the band at 4.15. Man, was I tired.
Anyway, it's the last day of Orientation tomorrow. Last and longest day. It had been a good time (even though I expected better) but it was enjoyable nonetheless and I got to meet many new schoolmates and have many nice new friends. And discovered a new percussion SL.
Ok anyway, tomorrow's day would be tiring, definitely. It ends late. LOL mass dance, I'm just gonna whack man. Don't even know what I'm doing half the time. I hope I don't look too stupid but aiya, mass dance is MASS dance for a reason. If it's any consolation, everyone will look retarded together. And then a few couples are gonna look fantastic cos lol they are dancers.
So yup, last day tomorrow let's make it end with a blast.

Every night I convince myself that I can't sleep so I don't sleep.

Day #3

At the MRT station now waiting for my bus to arrive. Long day today again. It's raining again. Raining gently. Why the weather always match my mood ah.
Anyway, heading back at this hour because my OG went for dinner together again. 1st time I joined them for OG dinner. I missed OG dinner yesterday because of the last minute change of my plans. And my mind lol.
Anyway, dinner was very good. Got to know my OG members a lot better because it was quite a small group of us that went for dinner.
They are really nice people, no doubt about that.
I keep having these unhealthy lapses of... Idk what to call it either. Just sudden zoning out or losing all my energy then having all this withheld energy released at the next instant. Whoa it's really unintentional and I hope I don't offend anyone when it happens, ah well I hope no one even notices. Do you know what it feels like? It feels really bad. I hope I won't be feeling like this.
Anyway, back to OG dinner. It was great fun, we talked and joked and laughed and laughed some more. Whoa I think we covered all conversation topics available lol. But only 9 people went for dinner today.
I'll be honest and say that today was very very disappointing. I was excited for today (see, expectations lead to disappointments) because we were supposed to go visit the Flyer, Gardens by the Bay, MBS, the Singapore river and the Esplanade. That would've been canceling out many locations on my tour with Zhou list. But we didn't manage to do that. There was a lightning alert received around 2.30 and we had to follow protocol and camp take shelter. It didn't rain immediately though, just a lot of grey clouds but when it did eventually rain; the rain barely lasted for 30 minutes. By the time we were allowed to move on it was 4 and all activities were supposed to end at 4.30. Whoa. That sucked.

Orientation Day 2

A LOT more enjoyable than Day 1. Today was all about fun and games. Dancing and playing more games. My OG has very nice people.
Today I realized that there were a lot of people in NY that I already know. Mostly primary school classmates & an NCO.
Today I also learnt that I need to stop caring so much about some things. Stop caring.
We started off with the college tour which was actually station games. That was fun.
Then we had mass dance after lunch. It's quite a challenge memorizing all the different choreography.

Blur OG picture. Tomorrow's Day 3.

What day is it

Hi today I'm going to talk about reality. Reality is the harsh truth to majority of the human population. Ok firstly let me get this straight. This year I told myself to tell myself that I'm "a lot more fortunate than you (I) think you are (I am)". Why? Because yes, I am.
So here I am today right now at 11.02p sharing with you a slice ("piece" is overrated) of my mind.
The reality that I currently see is that if you have money, you win. It's seen almost everywhere anyway. When we play Monopoly or The Game of Life, the winner is the player with the most money at the end of the game. All the time. If you're gonna compare material belongings obviously the people with money will have the greatest purchasing power hence highest valued goods. Or let's see, if one were loaded with money, one would be able to afford top-notch tutors and/or trainers for academics/instruments/sports. Hence excelling greatly there in that area (of course when it comes to skills mentioned here, practice would always come hand in hand with the help [if you don't help yourself no one can help you] but the advantage would already be obvious). How this reality struck me again was actually because of the recent posting of schools and what I see around me. So what I see is that people with money are able to screw the O levels man. Just heck with it. Y'know I say I study but actually nah I'm just having a social gathering with my friends. Or y'know I'll just casually not make studying a priority because I don't have to work hard. Because when I don't do as well as I hope and I don't get posted to a branded school I'll just pay money and get a place in one. Or I'll just go to an international school. Or I'll just go overseas. Cos money is overrated.

K I honestly have nothing against people who do this. In fact I have friends doing exactly all of the above. And I respect that decision. But what I'm looking at is more of what majority of people do and how everything turns out and then I'm asking myself if it was worth it. It's not fair and I'm gone pass that phase of accepting that. But I'm just stuck at the "damn was everything worth it" part now.
Sorry if I unintentionally offended anyone. My ranting goes overboard almost all the time. And anyway, I am never able to get my train of though directly through the tunnel anyway. Increasing offending rants when I feel very conflicted. Like today.
Today was a very very very very very long day. It dragged on almost endlessly. Attended a band ensemble competition. To be dead honest, I went in with my non-competitive mode (what's new). Yes I went into a competition without trying to pose as competition. Why I did that was because I was told to just go for fun and not be bothered about the results. Go there and learn and grow and blah blah blah (new vocabulary learnt today). But by the end of the competition, when we didn't win, we got told off. Ok confusion number 1. Mildly affected only. I was told that I "better improve your (my) tone". Sorry I never got the mura I was promised. And aiya to be honest sorry lah you're no longer my priority
Don't care if I'm using a Mura Altus Burkart Yamaha I d c. Cbf. Idc. Idk. Idgi. What other acronyms do you want.
Ok I shall indirectly introduce confusion number 2. So I tried to imagine what I would do if I were in your situation and no I would not have done what you did and yes I would actually know what it's like but no I still would not have done what you did. Why? Because I am sensitive and not ignorant and I care about how others would feel ah maybe that ah. Aiya but sama sama lah not my life I can't control your actions I can only react to them so cbfidkidcidgi.
I impulsively snipped off a lot of my new hair. So I look like a boy again but I am not upset why? I also don't know. Blank state of mind right now filled with negativity and angst so I shall regret this tomorrow.
Only irritated/conflicted/tired chow needs to get sleep because I rise before the sun tomorrow morning. Good night.